I have many dreams and ideas, aspirations and inspiration. For as many ideas as I have, only a sliver get off the drawing board and into real life.

I have wanted to start a school, like a developmental play group. I drive past buildings for sale or storefronts in a strip mall and think that'd be a good location for my school. As we've done more homeschooling, the idea has changed to be more homeschool-oriented. Maybe not developmental playgroups but mentoring or counseling the homeschool mom and helping with ideas for teaching. I do are that I would need significant years of homeschooling under my belt to be taken seriously, and to even have the time to do that. Who am I kidding? I have  a not-even-18-month-old! This is like millennia away. 

I aspire to write. What, I don't know. Fiction, "Religious", Bible study, memoir? Who knows? 

I aspire to paint. I'd love I learn how to make beautiful art.

The difference between a child and an adult is that a child dreams, but an adult does. I learned that recently. Yes, I am an adult but frequently with the mindset of a child. I don't want I make decisions and be held responsible. I don't want to speak my mind and be judged. I don't want to be myself out of fear of being wrong. 

I want to be an adult, and I am learned to do just that. I have something to offer this big scary world. Maybe it's just my mind. Or my hands to serve. But I am an adult, not a scared child who is allowed to dream but not actually do anything.

My only question is, how can I "do" and not just dream when I need significant experience and years under my belt? God is clearly saying "wait". Dream, practice, do. He is saying, I will tell you when to do, but until then, wait and run in place.