Writing shame

I am afraid 

To share

My writing

With anyone

But especially 

Him 

This doesn't

Mean he's not 

Trustworthy

Safe

Or caring

It shows me that the 

Unsafety

Is inside

Me

Everything feels unsafe because 

I 

am

Unsafe

For whatever reason

I am not able 

To be myself

To anyone

Even

Him

Do I really need a reason?

Or can

I just be okay with knowing that how I am

And move on

I am more willing I write this 

Anonymously 

That share it with

Him

Why?

Shame

Dripping with shame 

For as long as I can remember