It's your birthday today.
But you gave up on birthdays a long time ago.
You gave up on me a long time ago.
I don't understand.
I don't understand why I care now.

Maybe it's because so many years I helped you celebrate
And it takes a long time for those memories to fade.
I always spent so much time looking for
The perfect present
For you.

You hurt me.
You betrayed me.
You dumped me as a friend.
Like I was nothing, like we were nothing.

You can't just dump 15 years of friendship
And expect there to not be consequences.

But in the last few months I've realized that
You don't have power over me anymore.
You aren't hurting me anymore
The hurt I feel is a shadow of the past
And it's not happening anymore.

I remembered your birthday because
I forgive you.
I thought of you and felt sad
Because I forgive you.

It's a new feeling.
A new thinking.
A new me.