Painfully awkward

Feeling off

Not understanding tone

More comfortable with children

Uncomfortable around men

It makes more sense now that I understand I am not grown up yet. It's not a bad thing. It's just a fact. It will change. But I can't rush through change. I can't shortcut through this. I want to. I want to be fixed. I don't want to do this work that seems never ending. I want to be at the end.

It's a grace to me that I don't get to shortcut through this but instead get to rely on Him and Him alone.